FIRST BLOG OF 2020: PARAMASHIVA ONTOLOGY: CONCLUSION VS COGNITION 1/21/20

Grays Anatomy

​Swamiji says binary logic pushes you and makes you believe this, "Do not act or make decisions till you come to the conclusion”. I’ve been taking action and making decisions without binary logic, many times extremely impulsively, from as early as I can remember.

​My grandma would caution me again and again, “Look before you leap" based on the current infraction. For me, when the impulse or vision would arise, that impulse or vision was already happening. I just had to jump onboard like how a surfer catches a wave. It was this energy that propelled me to live in Indianola with Dick. To kayak the Yukon. To immerse myself in many of the projects of my life such as genealogy. To live in a teepee. To be with Brian. To move to Ohio. To stop drinking alcohol. To move to Delaware to live close to the temple. To jump fully on board when I met my guru, Swamiji.

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​The decisions I made growing up, hoping to fit in and get approval, were decisions made out of binary logic, incompletions, decisions that are difficult to upgrade, because they were based on a conclusion, not on a cognition. For example, I studied the sciences. I wanted to. I loved anatomy and wanted to work with human bodies. My conclusion was that if I went into sciences it meant I was smart and that is what people would like in me.

I also wanted to go into art and music but there was also a conclusion; I was not good enough in music, how does one go into art, and my brother is going into science, my parents like him, therefore I should go into science. So I made a decision based on logic, and kept pushing and forcing that route and stopped “living” my life in the areas of art and music.

When deadness begins, we pile on more and more dead limbs hoping to spark a fire of life and intensity. Fortunately, I got sidetracked pretty quickly from my science fantasy because I did not make the grades to get into PT school. And I found something that was a better fit - natural resources which included education. And thankfully, more visions and inspirations came my way that I acted on immediately and without a conclusion.

For me, a lot of decisions I made with binary logic are unwinding and it leaves me feeling vulnerable in a binary logical world. So the best decision and action I could make without any binary logic whatsoever is to write. To continue to navigate without using the cues of conclusions. This is my evolution.